For My Teacher,

I devote all writings, discoveries, and material to my master teacher - Leas Maria. In all gratitude, loyalty, and from the bottom of my heart - the one she helped me to open. May I strive to uphold the standards for truth and integrity in this work. May I earn the right to lead others from suffering!

A note to the reader. I began this work over 3 years ago. The following entry is from an unspecified date. These observations were made towards the beginning of my internal practices. More direct experience work will follow. These are simply recordings, memories, and notations from the past.

BODY, MIND, SPIRIT INTEGRATOR

DAY ONE

Worked on squeezing the attention at different points in the brain today. Left, right and middle forebrain and midbrain areas. My teacher talks about finding the right track for you and that there may be no set prescription to the road of where the attention goes. Whenever she demonstrates where to start the Integrator, she always goes to the right side of her head. I want to see where the best starting point for me is, as well as begin to understand the differing effects, if any, of traveling from one side of the brain or the other. Or maybe the inclination could be from starting in the middle forebrain and tracking the attention to the Baihui point, or the Crown Chakra. Could this be the correct path of attention for me? Only time and experimentation will tell.

Finding the Attention

I practiced in the park today in the morning and had the thought that I should enter into this practice in different environments – as another way of gathering more input on how the various locations would affect the practice and the integration of mind, body, and spirit. The main reason I bring this up is to discuss this meditation method, one which has been able to focus my attention while working in environments with a cacophony of sounds. Those that are not necessarily unpleasant but constant and diverse; such as traffic, birds, children, footsteps, dogs, etc. From what I’ve heard about the approach to other methods of meditation, part of the training allows for the practitioner to achieve such an advanced state of quietude in the mind, that all environmental sounds disappear, and in effect aren’t registered within the brain of the Master. I am of course speaking as a near novice in my path of mapping consciousness, but one method I have been using to focus the conscious mental modality is to use the sounds of the environment to bring the attention back to the point of concentration, back to my white ball of light and energy and healing. As though all sound, energy and the total environment folds in on itself and gets poured into the focused point of attention in the brain. As though the entire Universe, the stars, the moon, the sun, the solar system, fire, water, and all the elements fold in on themselves and pour into the focused point of attention. Helping your self attain an extreme state of receptivity, to the wonder and power of the Universal Mind, to the consciousness of everything, to God itself. What wonderful possibilities!

As I have begun to train the attention I have discovered that it has helped to image the inside of my brain and body as a gigantic pinball machine. I have begun to image myself as a pinball machine and I have begun to feel a sense of following the blinking lights to the targeted area of attention. Or maybe even like a plane landing on a runway at night. Eventually zeroing in on the point in the forebrain that feels the most concentrated and the most logical in terms of the angular placement within the brain. Sort of like locking in on a target through your attention scope or lens, like looking through the crosshairs of the cerebrum, eventually allowing for the brain to float with ease and relaxation within the cerebrospinal fluid. Letting the fluid heal the brain and the mind and teach the body how to follow in homeostasis.

Body/Mind Qi Transmission

At this point in my training I am using my ‘Crane Fingers’ mudra to allow my mind to follow the focus of my body. According to my teacher it is in this mudra that the most energy can be transferred from one source to the other. At extreme moments of concentration in the conscious mental modality, I sense there to be a large transference of energy between the point of my fingers and the targeted area of the brain. I primarily feel these sensations in the tips of the fingers and at the wrist, almost as though the tension were releasing, either by the joints and tendons unlocking, the musculature and fascia easing off, or the blood and Qi beginning to flow. These moments of sensations are light pulses of release from within, causing the slightest of external movements. It makes perfect sense that I would first feel these sensations in my wrists, as these are areas of great concentration in terms of acupuncture points and meridians. The 'Shu' or Stream points. I have only felt the direction of energy as coming from the brain and into the hand and wrist, and not the other way around. I wonder if this is the natural flow and I should investigate whether the attention of energy flow could go the other way and what the results of that particular intention would yield.

So far I have found it to be more difficult to locate those primary points of attention in the mid-brain. This should not be surprising as most of us spend our lives living from the forebrain. This can be trained and I believe my ability to bring attention to other parts of the brain will open up intelligences. And my other question is whether this list of directions can begin that process. Faith happens through experience not out of blind hope or fear, at least for me it did, and continues to do.

Spirals

I am fascinated by the technology of using spiraling as a way to move the attention from one point to the next. Would it be easier to go in a more linear fashion? For me the technique of spiraling feels like it gives the internal meditation practices a sense of more freedom and release, in that the slow motion speed required in training these techniques, allow for the body to use the input of attention to its fullest, as it travels along its path. I also find it more difficult to remain in the experience of my sensations by spiraling the attention. So far it has required more concentration to stay within the frequency of the subconscious modality, as I often pop the attention back out into thought and ideas as born out of the conscious mental modality.

According to the my teacher's handbook, and practiced during Qigong warm-ups, my teacher has mentioned that squeezing the attention in the brain will have relaxation affects on other parts of the body. That if you are truly holding the attention to its fullest, the practitioner should be able to sense a release in the big toe for example. I have not found this to be the case as of yet. I do however, at this point, feel a sense of release and relaxation coursing through the rest of my body as I reach very focused and strong moments of attention in the brain.

My teacher talks about following a path of attention, that encounters little to no stress or resistance in the brain. To this point I have not encountered any areas of major resistance, either in the brain or in the body. No serious chronic illnesses or injuries that have disallowed access to using The Integrator. Left, right, or middle. I wonder to what importance the starting position in the body has, in beginning to develop the path of attention of the Mind/Body/Spirit Integrator. And how does this important shift in frequency depend on which track the attention starts? Why not go all the way to the back brain and the cerebellum?