I.

El Nahual. Nonbeing. Union of opposites. Sea monster before creation. Waters without land. Arise!

Incomprehensible Father of mystery, I adore you. I, pure and gorgeous, am yours. Forever . I have waited forever to be your bride. Now could be the day of your Awakening. My sweet womb beckons.

Already the maidens prepare my retinue. My Lord, I'm Queen this very day. Queen this very day.

II.

Everywhere I look, you aren't ; yet when all ceases, I find you within.

Simple beyond what the mind can hold, infinitely smooth and broad, white as a diamond and long as infinity, you are El Nahual, World Serpent, great All-Father beyond the Abyss.

I am calm in my rapture with you, supreme Serpent of knowledge. I am tranquil.

III.

Death and Life are two great lies ; their union unspeakable, True. Their union is one that I share with you.

Once, dreams and drama clouded my vision. Even then you haunted me. Occasionally you used to be a horrifying vision, a shadow that devoured all that was known, Enemy. When you were nearby in that guise, blackness descended. I became blind and you, a tower behind me, lifted me up. I became immobilized, powerless. Ever silent, you held me over a height as if to drop me.

Criss cross, applesauce. Spiders crawling up my back. Vampire bites me on the neck. You terrified me, Father, for back then, like a prism, I split light from darkness, and though you are Light beyond that which can be seen, you occupy even the blackest Pit. I did not recognize you. Now, at the end of all struggle, thru you I know myself. My Lord, given over to you, I am ecstatic and serene.

IV.

The grand, central Pyramid is prepared. Floating above the Abyss, it is the invisible cap upon the ultimate iron Rod, the central axis of the Universe. The Rod outlines depth, even to the center of the Earth, even to the subculture. Two crossing rods in heaven make an X close to the top, just beneath and parallel to the foursquare floor of the invisible Pyramid, defining length and width in the manifested world. Above those cross pieces, jackal-headed Anubis grips the Rod with his delicate, hairy hand.

Raise the 4 sabres for the marriage procession in the World Above, one for each of the modes of our unity! My Lord, without extension, yet you penetrate my core 4 ways.

Here in the Pyramid's grand chamber am I Queen, with all of creation my body beneath my cape of glittering stars.

V.

Inside my body on Earth, I feel your Presence as a breeze upon my face. Objects are clear. Cares are insubstantial. Life is meaningless and beautiful-a sonnet in motion.

Great Nahual, even in the world of the human you subsist, unseen. You are the force and substance of everything.

You are that out of which the Creator fashioned Himself-the Great Mystery. You are that which existed before the beginning and which remain after the end.

I am not separate from you-could not be. Yet I am your girl and Queen Malkuth.

'This is the making of the world, that the discomfort of division is as nothing, and the enjoyment of dissolution all.'

Great Father, in ecstasy shall I dissolve in you. Even as I live, Original Father, shall I melt in you.